REPOST

Sorry invited readers for that short Italian moments. I'll post in English now so u guys can understand yar. So well as u can see here, I've privatized my blog due to certain reasons. Heh. And mind you, I've only like invited a few peeps which I guess I could trust. (I left one of my sahabats out.. :/)

I'll skip bout my weekends..There's been great and bad moments too. Alright, straight to the point. I'm like so out of sorts with my emotions rite now. Fcuked. Yeah, I'm angry. Pissed. I should have played my cards rite man.. It angers me as ____ just starting to know ____ and have already making all those andainans. Take a hike, dude! If I should have known, I would not introduce you to her. I mean its damn sucky to have this feeling rite now as I know that I don't really have the right to 'prevent' u peeps frm becoming frens. I mean its okayy wf me, really. And its stupid if we 'fought' over a gal..Coz why? U pissed me off with ur words.. Damn.Damn.Damn. I don't know what exactly u told her but FCUKED u! I feel so betrayed. And I'm like beset by doubt. Urgh.

Its so totally not me rite now. I got easily frustrated..etc.Pfft. 2 of my sahabats said I've changed. Hmms. Well, maybe? Urgh. Its a dog-eat-dog world out there. Yeah.. sometimes you have to be ruthless, or be a snob maybe? But intellectual snob not bad tau! Its a compliment not an insult(tts wt Mr Yeo said) Hahs.
AArgh.

And I'm thankful that my religion have kept me strong all these while.. While I'm down..Allah provided me with something to at least smile about. Got a business opportunity from Aunt Cindy while helping her out as part of my Entrepreneurship Club training yesterday...

Sorry guys for reading my oh so emo post. I need to rant it out somewhere kn?



Menyingkap tirai hati
Mengintai keampunan
Di halaman subur rahmat-Mu, Tuhan
Tiap jejak nan bertapak
Debu kejahilan
Akan ku jirus dengan madu keimanan

Tak ternilai airmata dengan permata
Yang bisa memadamkan api neraka
Andai benar mengalir dari nasuha nurani
Tak kan berpaling pada palsu duniawi

Destinasi cinta yang ku cari
Sebenarnya terlalu hampir
Hanya kabur kerana dosa di dalam hati
Telah ku redah daerah cinta
Yang lahir dari wadah yang alpa
Tiada tenang ku temui
Hanya kecewa menyelubungi

C/O
Ku gelintar segenap maya
Dambakan sebutir hakikat
Untuk ku semai menjadi sepohon makrifat
Moga dapat ku berteduh di rendang kasih-Mu

Namun ranjaunya tidak akan sunyi
Selagi denyut nadi belum berhenti
Durjana syaitan kan cuba menodai
Segumpal darah bernama hati
(Destinasi cinta Ilahi)

Lestarikan wadi kalbuku, oh Tuhanku
Leraikan aku dari pautan nafsu
Biarpun sukar bagiku melamar redha-Mu
Namun masihku mengharap ampunan-Mu
Wahai Tuhanku… Ya Allah…